it's silly sometimes how much of an open book i am. it pains me to the core how I can't mask the things im going through. 

a lot going on this week. it burns me out to feel like i dont have a place anywhere. it makes me feel so done to think i have to work extra harder than anyone here to prove my place. 

i dont know, i dont need to prove my point or anything but i have this grudging feeling to look for some sort of apporval. from whom, i dont know 

"do you know why i was quiet the entire time? i thought that if I can't talk about what im going through without you questioning why i didnt stood up for myself, i know for one, that by just quietly being by your side at least, can take the pain away. 

"you're all that i have, and it sounds so cliché and stupid. being by your side is already enough"