i dont know if it's today that i'm feeling this way but i just feel like giving up and letting go.
some days i don't know why i'm working this hard.
some days i wonder if it is worth every effort.
some days i feel like people think i'm still not working hard enough - and i'm starting to believe that myself.
some days i feel like i'm trying, trying really hard but i still feel like the running joke.
but most days i try to tell myself that this will all be worth it.
october was okay. i finally left my job. i finally get to see the flaws. i finally get to see a man taking a leap of faith in hopes of landing into a better place with better people after bearing with all the struggles.
but truth to be told i don't think november went off with a great start. i'd say it's not nice to feel really horrible when you're supposed to be happy because you feel like you don't deserve any of it. but i just hope that things just look up from here on.
i've had enough of bad days.
