valentine art

the week is finally over!! finally!!

Valentines day gifts and art during free period. my week was good. 

at times like this

when all i want to say is

sorry
i dont know why i'm feeling/saying sorry
hang in there
you are worth more

but i don't know how. when i feel like i'm neither on both sides. when i want to tell you to just hang in there. when i want to tell you to not misunderstand.

but i just dont know how to.

to sum things up

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if i could tell my day through just 1 emoticon, it would just be

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my teeth feel sore, bread is so far the softest food i could find, cramps arent helping, and staining my skirt earlier also didnt help.

if my teeth feels sore, most of the time i'm really grumpy, so you wouldnt want to imagine all the dark feelings going through my head with the pain from my teeth and all the cramps and hunger.

my day was okay. could have been better.

highlight of the week

for show and tell a few days ago i finally decided to bring the air/face mask and stethoscope given to me from both of my sisters. i told them they share a similar story from my perspective as those things kind of represent their career and things like that.
ms huang told me it was sweet. though i could've talked more but i seemed to forget to let the words lurking in my head to flow out of my mouth.

and then a few days earlier during free period, when i was napping with my head on my desk, a classmate of mine specially woke me up, to just ask how to use the reinforcement ring.
i'm sure she didn't had any intention to bother me nor to really learn how to use that thing as it wasnt really a crucial time to though, but i just blew over my top when i was awaken for such a question i took that thing and threw it and shouted

"CIBAI I SLEEPING RIGHT/ you cunt, cant you see i was sleeping?!"

and i myself shocked myself for doing such a thing. i knew i was mad but i didn't intend to act so harsh, but i did, because, well, my sleep was interrupted.
the chances of you dying when waking up someone for a question gets higher. so anyway i did felt guilty but just l o l that is probably the highlight of the week.

yes, shouting at an innocent classmate and then getting shocked for what i did.

story of my life.

The fact that my school had been organising humanities trips to Japan since the past 2 years, but couldnt go because of the virus in one year and then the earthquake & tsunami the next, but by this year they seemed to just give up and is just not going to organise any overseas trip this year is just

depressing.

depressing.

depressing.

i cant even remember the last time i've broad a plane..