book of the identity

i cant tell you enough how i found how cool this person is, though i've only watched a few of her videos. i fell in love with her instantly. 

in other news, i've got a terrible flu that made me all congested and unglamorous and snoring at night. but i honestly want to go to school because i cant afford to miss lessons. hah. 

also earlier when i was about to leave the consultation room, the doctor looked intensely into my eyes. his hands then reached out to my face and.. 

pulled the skin below my eyes to make sure it was only a cold HAHAHAHAHA HIYA my life 

book of the near

trying to take photos for primary references for art and ended up taking photos with my cat. 

also earlier at school i went ahead and took my meds because i thought i knew i wont be eating until school ends because i didnt bring any money for lunch. turned out to be a very bad idea because i ended up going home from the very unpleasant side effects. 

but i felt better after eating cookies and a sandwhich. after which i went to spotlight with my mom to get some stuff for art. and then we ended up in chinatown. woops. 

book of the lust

i cant help but take bad photos. in other words, i've reorganized my desk and my story books dont fit in anywhere after i've shifted it.
and my book collection isnt very impressive either.

in other news:

"i can imagine myself meeting and loving a boy who is as involved and in love with the same fandoms i'm in. who i can talk about legend of aang & korra & lord of the rings on end. who reads a lot of books. and wouldnt mind me having such a lame taste in music and would also make mixtapes on what he wants me to hear and i'd do the same too.

and that also he's probably non existent"

.....

"i guess you probably have to pay to make someone like that, right?"

book of the broke

i had the most depressing sunday of the year thus far (well incomparable to the term 'depressing', really ), but just really, really sad.
i saw two books i was in a hunt for months being sold in limited stocks

but

i was really broke.

and i'm going to continue being broke until the 25th. so right now i'm trying to save as much as i can which means cutting off my recess money for the whole week so i can buy the book.

that is how pathetically broke i am.

book of the student

my gran-uncle and gran-aunt came over last night and it was nice to know she was one of the few people who believed i could ace my o-levels. 

she told me to always be calm and also told me the minimum she'd believe & expect me to get for english is a solid A2 after i told her i fared a C for my recent exams. 

it felt nice to know someone at least believed i could do well in something, you know. 

other than that teachers keep telling me to work hard at every subject i do so at least when i get my results i'll have a 'safety net' but my gran-aunt told me to try and concentrate on 5 subjects that i'm good at. 

and she assumed i was coping well in my studies since back in primary school i had to do 14 subjects and now i'm only doing half of it. 

you have no idea how my mind is in such a state of confusion from both such calming and pressurising news i got in one night. 

book of the unseekable

i can see myself tearing open the sealed results and reading the course numbers that are applicable to my grades.
in desperation to find the code that i've been dreaming of.
and it's just
not
there.

this is really bad. i feel like i cant foster anymore hope or optimism to convince myself that i'll do good if i work hard enough.
and i just cant see myself there. i cant see myself receiving my results and be happy about it. be happy that i'll be able to land in the course i'd love.
this just terrifies me, but on a lighter note, people do have hope and it's nice to hear that there are only a few who think i'll be able to work towards my goal. that's just really nice.

other than that i've received the art o-level paper and it just freaks me out.

book of the scanning kitties

i literally did a CAT SCAN EHEHUEHUHEUHEH
so yes, my sunday was spent scanning my cats. though it wasnt easy trying to calm them down while theyre on the scanner. other than that i tried doing school work like art & biology & math but i couldnt sit through it.
maybe because it's only the start of school. or maybe i've developed an attention disorder, i dont know.

book of the thorough

first day of school was okay. the thought that i'm in my final year and am taking the biggest major exam in my life so far in less than a year is slowly sinking in. 

other than that i havent really reflected on what 2012 has bought me.

i personally think it was somehow the best one for myself so far, because i made it through the year without any drama or hurting anyone, or my feelings.

i grew distant from a lot of people but i honestly think that had actually made me happier and content.

to sum everything up, i'm simply am very content but not in a way that i could tell people and they couldnt agree more. i enjoyed it myself.

other than that i realized i have accomplished nothing during my school holidays, the one i intended to, like walk around town to figure it out more, or practice my splits or whatever. i'm such a fail.