it has been a while
i can say things like
"i'm busy preparing for my exams"
"i've been stressed out"
"been drowning with school work"
but i just can't. i really dont know what im doing, to be honest.
i'll sit but i'll be drifting away in 5 minutes.
i dont think i will ever be ready and the thought of it. the thought of the present makes me scared.
makes me uncertain
like i really cant see the next chunk of my life
like it's going to end
and i wish i could end it
but i'm not a saint
and i've accomplished nothing thus far
except making more people finally leaving and giving up
