book of the gratified

i might have blabbed some of the usual pains in the past post, but a few days after, my holidays seemed much more significant. my days got better.

anyway i went to malaysia for a day, started on a new book in which i imagine the main character being really good looking, walked a dog, walked a hedgehog, bought to town, tried on shoes at town, bought birthday presents, got quite a number of books from my favorite aunt and a whole lot of other good shit.
it's a crying shame that i didnt bring around a camera to tell you how legit fun i had.

probably a tad bit too uninteresting for you but i've had 'first-times' during the past few days which i dont think i'll ever forget i mean i bet you've never heard of anything like 'walking a hedgehog' right am i right. ok.

book of the uncertainty

hello. here's the week worth of complaints which you might already know. 

i dont know what i'm doing to myself. there is no progress in my art prep, and i'm not even finished with my books because i'm not in the mood for it. my room is a giant crapstorm of clutter. my desk cant seem to clear up because i dont know where to start.

and with that i'll leave you with my 5 most favorite radiolab podcasts shorts. 

- What's Up, Doc?

- Mutant Rights

- Death Mask

- Slow

- Dogs Gone Wild

i really hope you give them a listen. because for once i just want to feel the certainty that people would be interested or even understand whenever i talk about podcasts. i hope you have a good week ahead. and i hope you hadnt lost faith in me. yet. 

book of the so uninspired, so sick and tired

i cant tell you how disappointed and upset i was when they declared that i am unincluded.
they probably didnt mean it, or they probably do, but i cant tell you how i felt hurt.

but aaaaaaaanyway lets just segway to how uninspired i am at my art prep work. i dont know what to do with my life anymore.

book of the unpleasant

1. james patterson is a genius. 
2. i really love coming home after a long day at school to an empty house and i'll just lie in bed without switching on the fan or anything and find solace in listening to the sheer emptiness and stillness of everything. 
3. colours organised according to shades really pleases me. and so far no one understands that yet. 
4. a really classic bookstore at plaza sing. there used to be a lot of these around. what you do is just pick a book that want to read or buy and pay for it. if you like it you keep it. if you dont or youre too broke and you want your money back you return it and get your money back. 

anyway my so far my week isnt going too well and it's only a tuesday. 

on monday there was a retest on bank reconciliation and despite passing the test and having it gone through AND getting nagged by mr goh because our class didnt do well, i was completely stressed out during the retest i thought i was going to break down, and i'm sure i'll fail this time round. 

i was just so close to an anxiety attack because i felt like i should do it right this time and that was when my brain couldnt shut up. a part was telling me "screw this piece you are going to fail and let him down" and another was telling it to shut up and asking me to calm down. 

i swear it was not a pleasant feeling. 

and today, i had to sit on a mole & chemical calculations test which i had missed out and that also wasnt any better. 

"but i have a valid reason and i had the document to prove it"

"but i'll grade you a zero if you dont sit for this test!"

"and i'll still get a zero if i do take this test!"

that is all. 

wow that was wordy. have a nice week ahead.