book of the "complacent"

my day was good. not really good but just good.
today we toured around the radiology department and it was pretty cool, got to see right through a patient (literally) while she swallowed barium sulfate and observed MRI scans and what not.

also most of the people we met told us to work hard so we can all land to a good course, on our way to a good paying job bla bla bla
just really makes me think about this unreal near-future post o-level results period when i'll be applying for schools and picking out courses & i just really hope i wont have to land on a awful one which can practically make my life a living hell not doing what i really like.

.. it just seems too unreal and i get too worried about it..

book of the ironic

i worry too much. i worry about how people would see me as. i worry about first impressions. 

most of all i worry if i seem like to you, i try too hard.

book of the unpleasant

you know what would be such a fantastic idea right now?

for you to shut the fuck up!! oh. my. god. isn't that brilliant?!?!?!?!

on a lighter note, i'm at day 3/4 of cgh work experience, and tomorrow's radiography.
so far i've enjoyed myself and the other day while at the lab they made us take tests on our own urine and the technician told me that i was dehydrated & havent been eating based on my results.
hah hah haaaaaaaaa.

book of the well spent

on sunday, sue may and i did our volunteering duties again (did the same thing, feed goats, groom rabbits and combed a fellabella's mane bla bla bla)  and this time after we were done we went to explore the whole zoo, to the places we've havent been to. 

(click on the photos for a bigger/clearer view)

^ lemurs cuddling (!!!) while it was drizzling & there was one who sat really close & we wanted to take a selca with it but.. it didnt like looking at the camera almost all of the photos were too blurry. this was the best shot ha ha ha 

book of the impractical

these past few days consisted of

1. watching a lot of videos of youtube. shows, make up tutorials (lol), shorts and skits. 
2. trying to figure out make up
3. trying on clothes that's perfect for a very cold weather, but impractical enough to wear out in this country
4. and not even going out despite trying to experiment on make up. still cant figure them out. 
5. in-ears headset hunting. sadly have found none. 
6. calculating how much i need and how much i have to spend on birthday gifts for mom and sis this december. 
7. and getting sick all over again. ears ringing, bones aching and my heart feels like it's trying to beat its way out of my chest 

sigh.

book of what

1. save my hair, my curls are stripped off and it's really dry. tho i love the colour. 
2. is it okay to be so in love with a bag you just purchased, wanting to bring it around wherever you go? i guess not. 

book of worries

hi. the holidays are too boring and i've reached the point where i dont know what else to do on the internet. apart from that things are still normal, arguments with mom, worrying about my future, worrying that i'm worrying too much, worrying that i'm not doing anything, worrying about o level art, worrying that i'm not that much of a healthy well balanced teenager who has friends that occasionally ask each other out, and a whole lot of other stuff. mainly just worrying. i dont think that's really healthy for me. 

apart from that, yesterday & today was a bit different, i finally had something to do that required me to step out of the apartment, i had an appointment with my orthodontist and i still have to continue wearing my elastics /cries/ and while she asked me to choose my colour, i nearly picked this pretty pastel colour but i feel like i couldnt make those kinds of decisions in such a short period of time because dr song was staring and yeah. 

and then today i went to this work experience programme at cgh and jeremy and i apparently didnt get the memo that we werent signed up and that we had to wear our school uniforms. 

that honestly felt painful because i felt like i didnt matter bla bla bla also the other schools that were invited were the superior kinds that i cant even dream of entering and were really good at talking i was ajshdgahjgfdsjfgh 

well thats it. i hope you enjoyed me rambling about the most amusing thing this week thus far.

book of the seriously?

my weekend was spent at my cousin's wedding, helping out, having fun & just being there.

i'll also be sure that when i get married, there wont be any karaoke booth, there will just be an orchestra or symphony or whatever, just not, never, a karaoke booth with an annoying deejay with annoying music. 

other than that, weeks ago, i went out alone to a mall and.. keep getting looks whenever i walk into a store. i dont know, it was probably my blue hair along with my black raglan tee and black jeans. i bet they just thought i was just another punk ready to steal something off their store. 

i guess it is true after all, my sister told me that people take you less seriously after you've dyed your hair a pretty vibrant colour. sigh stereotypes.

book of the splendid

socks all the way from korea, given by sue may n_n

on a delightfully lighter note, today officially marks the end of bridging program and the start of my holidays. i was really thinking of going to town, to the very unfamiliar place but most known place and just find my way around. but i'm just completely broke to no words.

other than that my english teacher told me i look/reminded her of pocahontas. but my forehead wasnt as big. geez i thought my forehead was big enough.

book of the bipolar

i look at the views i get on my blog everyday and wonder where each view comes from. who's reading it. and what i mean in their life for them to take a minute to care to read about my blog.

STOP IT AMIRAH STOP OBSESSING ABOUT YOUR VIEW COUNT

p/s you should drop by and say hi http://formspring.com/amirahhanif

book of the smarty pants

bony wrists, fat body lol. 

recently, i just made an amazing discovery, i realized all of my pullovers can just be paired with a white collared top underneath and it just makes everything look nicer. and smarter. 

cant believe that i hadnt thought of that before. but i'm just going to ask my mom to snip off the collar parts and sew it on my pullover lol.

book of grainy

1. a birthday isnt complete without tons of helium balloons.
2. moggie being a ball of fur
3. a very long leather jacket i bought which i never wore because it's always too hot out and it bothers me. it's also a very stupid purchase that i made, really.
4. and blue hair. yay. 

book of the loving

sunday was spent with rabbits and pandas at the zoo with sue may. it was pretty fun and went a lot better than expected. 

our job was actually to just be conservation ambassadors and apprently just talk to people about animal facts but the very kind keeper said that we could groom them in the cages and hold them to let the visitors pet instead so yeah. 

and no, the panda photo isnt mine but i put it there just to remind you what they look like. okay. no. 

but pandas always look like theyre smiling tho. 

and pretty smart.