i dont know, maybe i have a problem opening up. if there's one thing i've learned from being other people's confidante it's that all i need to do is suck it up and get on with your life.
truth to be told i'm mostly frustrated because there are people around me asking for credits for what they have gone/is going through - and then take complete advantage of the sympathy given. i have taken in all that i am able to and not bother telling anyone how good or bad my day went because really - all i want to do is get by with my day.
i feel like telling anyone about what's bothering me or not is just irrelevant. i thought i'd never be able to say this but in all honesty, i'm tired of being everyone else's confidante when i myself just try the best i can to get on with my day by just. not. mulling over. what's done.
i guess i'm one to not look past what's happen and focus on what's ahead and i guess that should be a good trait to have, but i'm done with people telling me to just "let it all out".
i dont want to.
i just want to move ahead and not look back thinking about shit i should or should not have done, and i think it's not that hard. i think it takes a lot less effort to stop probing because i don't think im one to keep things to myself, just that i move on without looking back.
