ever so young

Abercrombie & Fitch shirtless greeter? There were like tons of girls greeting them instead haha
Anyway they were all really kind and gentlemanly and skaljhsgfdksjdsa

Sigh I really wish I have a good camera. These photos were taken with the ever so pathetic phone of mine.

useless efforts

When you have your close friends openly planning out an outing in front of you and there is a very clear sign that they're not inviting you.

When you try so hard to keep them close to you.

When you try so hard to make yourself likeable for them to an extent that you go out of your way, do the things you think you should do just to make them like you.

And all in the end, they're all still the same.

I tried so hard to please people that I became a slave. I let people just step all over me. I let the others do what they want while I give 110% of my effort and in the end they all get the equal credit.

So much mixed feelings it's like a mix of

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On a much lighter note, there is also a feeling of this

And this

Because I've received a Good Progress Award from the ministry of education. 

  

we are all equal

from a personality quiz online. quite accurate.

what they're for

sigh. 

clean my spring

earlier my mother and I did the annual spring cleaning where we actually review our stuffs and consider to throw it away or not. And rearrange our furniture placement.

I asked mom why not we throw away this life size mirror on the wall that had been with us for years and it had a crack anyway, and my mom told me

"I've threw away everything and this is what I want to keep in memory of your father. I have nothing of him left anymore except for this"

It was a good 'bonding time' I had with mom while we cleaned.

To make up for the lack of posts, here's an update with some irrelevant photos

Here are just irrelevant photos to make up for the days I hadn't been updating. Well, not that I have to, but I feel bad to leave this blog and let it ironically "collect dust" and look abandoned. Anyway, my days are not really preoccupied cause it's not that I even go out to even hang out with my friends. Sigh.

Maybe a deep post will come out once in a while these days. 

'Cause you put the art in my heart

Clara C's show yesterday was really amazing to no words! Anyway I went alone yesterday because no one wanted to go with me or just isnt that intersted in her. It was a good day with myself sightseeing and finishing off the cheesecake all to myself. anyway, was actually my first time to go to a show like that (besides concerts at indoor stadium), it didn't had an elevated stage and it was just perfect, with not too much or too little people.

Sat in the second row, right exactly where I could clearly see Clara and she could actually see me while she was singing. It was just fantastic :')

I didn't managed to get the camera in and if I did and too photos it would probably result to stares from all the shutter and I would probably be dragged out by the ushers. Yeah, Esplanade's really crazy and strict like that. And once you get inside the theatre your reception would be totally cut off. 

Clara's really sweet and has a really down-to-earth personality by the way, when she talked to the audience it felt like a one to one conversation and like she was melodiously telling an interesting story. 

The meet & greet was really nice, completely different from the ones I've ever been to. The way she greets each of her fans with so much sincerity, like this is the only thing she could do in return from all the support we've given her. She even gave hugs and smelled nice. Better than a stupid Hi-5 event or fansign which we could only get from one member of a group. -__-

"what's your name?"

"oh it's amie. a-m-i-e"

"well that's nice!! it means friendship, or something, right?"

"yeah I came here alone!"

"alone?! omg come here!" /hugs

"did you enjoy the show?"

"yeah I did! Thank you!"

pretty much my conversation tho I'm sure she said a few things before that which I couldn't remember lol and I was also kind of star stuck and shy I didn't even know what to say tho I had thought about what I should before. Yeah. 

So my sister's Mac aka the family laptop's charger spoiled so I couldnt really update much, since my watermarked photos are in there. ugh dammit. But here's some from the Hi-5 event.

I donn't think I enjoyed the event that much, I mean, the Hi-5 event passes my sister won from signing up for a 2 year phone contract wasn't worth it at all! I was expecting a photo or a real meet and greet session with them. And also the security was so rude and rushing I don't even know why. I hate Singaporean security to no words I swear. The older ladies we made friends with were quite cool, they had a very intellectual and reasonable view for the complaints she had about this event.

Anyway, once I've got the charger fixed or something, I'll upload some concert photos. The concert was great, somehow, Junho liked hanging and looking around in our direction, and Syaliza gave us this placard that said 'Taec it off' and we were lucky Taec actually spot it while performing My Valentine. It was so funny, after what happened, I turned to Syaliza and we both screamed and spazzed for a good 10 seconds. 

And now that everything's over I feel like as if my life's already over. I've nothing to look forward to or anything. I don't know what to do with my life anymore for the holidays. gah. 

Things to do

1. Blog about 2PM's concert
2. painstakingly watermark photos
3. Upload concert photos on facebook
4. Draw on my sketchbook to make it seem like I had a productive holiday

yeah thats it I guess. A blog post and photos should be up by tonight! Had a rockin' good time during the concert, I'm having post withdrawal symptoms, and I miss them already. Haaaaa that is as pathetic as it sounds.

concern flatters me more than anything. I love you all. 

Speaking of which I'm down with flu. I think it's the first flu of this year. I hadn't got sick as far as I could remember. 

on a lighter note,

6/5 more days to 2PM concert!~!~!~~!~!~!~!!!! ajhgjhdgskjdhhgdf k bai.

Things I shouldnt be upset about

I'm upset because

• 2PM is not going to perform Gimmie The Light for the upcoming concert. I love that song to no end one of the reasons because Junsu pulled off a very nice falsetto at the end of the song and I want to see it live ;A;
• My sister is being annoying because she keeps insisting that we take the mosh pit tickets because she was scared that 2PM was closer to the mosh pit even though we got front row tickets. I don't like how she was in doubt and being a brat and being whiny about it. Just take what you have. 
• My diet and sleep regime is fucked up. 

But nonetheless I have things I should be happy about like

•  2PM concert is more or less a week away!!!~~~!~!~!~!!~~!~!!~!~!~!
• Clara C concert is also near \(^o^)/
• I ordered a nice pullover and I'm just waiting for it to arrive at my doorstep
• I have the most heavenliest ice cream in the freezer
• Who cares I get to see 2PM again!!! asjhdgjdgksaf

Lol. Just a random update. I should really update more often like when I was 14 lol. Have a nice week ahead to whoever is reading this!~

Maybe all of you deserve an explanation

I don't have the guts to say I've call it quits. I don't have the guts to say I've actually developed a phobia all this while. 

Maybe I was not at the peak of my passion when I injured myself that's why I don't have the will to start again. 

Call me a coward. Call me a loser, but I don't think you know this feeling I've had all this while. 

going through my old blog. from when I started out last year.
You could definitely see the differences between the first half and second half of the year. I like me better when I was in the late of the first half.

A pretty deep kid for a 14 year old back then, and I became a lot more boring than I was supposed to be.

lol this doesnt mean anything but you get my flow yea.

I would like to formally introduce myself

In case I forget.

I'm Amirah and I'm 15. Most of the time I'm an introvert, put me in a room full of people and I'll be at the corner staring into space and awkwardly answering questions. I'm a student still, and working my way to get into a course in psychology once I graduate from high school.

Most of the time I think I suffer from having such low self esteem, that I dislike being around people. I don't think I'm much of a likeable person in real life and I'm still learning to like myself.

I have nothing much to say about myself. But all I know that this new blog is kind of a fresh new start in finding myself and my own individuality and for me to see myself throughout the year later. Something like a time capsule, yes.

I don't think people who might just stumble across this blog might be intersted, but if you're a new reader, I hope you'd stay :)

A

Passion on ice

Ice skating with a few other 2E3 classmates on friday. I had a few falls which I didn't favour at all and all of the ice skating makes me want to get a new pair of roller blades and ice skates.

♥

Stream Away

Despite the difference between the 97ers and me being a 96er, you guys being very rowdy and more of a mentally late bloomer I shall say, I will still miss the class filled with 37 different colours and individuality.

From all the shouting, distractions, footprints imprinted around the walls of our classrooms, flying bottle caps and paper planes, and all the other bittersweet things I've shared with all of you, you've all have implanted a very deep memory and I'll still love all of you as a whole.

I'm just in sec 2 and maybe I'll say all these things when I'm about to graduate or so, but yes I love you all as the very annoying students of 2E3.

LOL I know I'm being so corny right now.

Why hello there

Starting out, I was previously from blogger but then I moved to tumblr and now I flown back here. Tumblr doesn't give me much of a motivation to post anything about my day at all.

I'm 15,  and I shall post all of the either mundane or exciting encounters of my daily existence here, most of the time, so I shan't forget and to keep things off my chest. 

I'm not that new, I'm not that exciting to know about either, but it's alright, most of this are just an overview of my age and how I progress through so someday I might just go back to remember all of this. 

Well I can go on forever. But I shall stop here. 

More of a personal blog, won't expect anyone to be interested in reading this anyway but nonetheless, have a nice stay.