book of the boring

happy eve/new year

i went out earlier to get some school shoes near my place and everyone else was dressed up waiting around with their friends and what not and there i was with my hair undone like hagrid's in sweats but that's ok.

and then bought a carton of milk and shared it with my cat. and then dyed my hair jet black.
and when i washed it off the shower floor was covered in black stuff that it seemed and reminded me of those demon-horror movies where some demon just puked pure evil all over the floor aka jennifer's body

so yes. how i spent my eve/new year.
but right now everything is so noisy it's ringing in my ears. twitter is flooded with annoying people and everywhere else is the same. i dont know how to start the new year.

i just hope i'll be a better individual. with better grades.

book of the worthless

i felt so bad because i couldnt do anything to help

i felt so bad because i only make things worse

i felt so bad because the only thing i probably do is just screw things up & not able to fix anything afterwards.

i cried because i feel worthless

i cried because i couldnt do anything to make things better

i cried because i hurt you

i cried harder because hearing people talk to comfort me just makes things worse.

book of the cake

less than a week to school

less than a year to my biggest major examination so far

i've yet to do my art assignment

or get pumped up for the art o level question paper

or finish the book im reading 

or anything, really. 

other than that, watsons held this members only sale and i had to queue to go inside the shop and people were probably just unknowingly queuing because they saw a queue and picking up random things because everything was apparently on sale. 

and i did the thing i thought i'd never do

which was to buy

a bottle of foundation.

i hope i dont turn into a cake too soon. 

book of the getaway

at my stay in Batam i did my first ever spa massage treatment, also the first time i've ever bared my naked in front of a stranger. good thing the lighting was pretty dark. other than that everything was pretty good, nice hotel, cheap stuff, bla bla other that the ferry ride back to singapore. 

1) the whole ferry ride back there was spoof videos of gangnam style played back to back on the tv and it gave me a horrible headache and made me cringe just by watching it. 

2) people pushing while we wait for the ferry and people everywhere mainly. something i hate to deal with. 

book of the thrift

murphy's law: Murphy's law is an adage or epigram that is typically stated as: "Anything that can go wrong will go wrong".

i remember being introduced to this law, but explained in an example of "you stand at the opposite side of the road waiting for a cab but none on it but the opposite one full with it. and when you cross to the opposite side, cabs start to disappear and magically appear on the opposite side." or something like that.

in that case, today, i went to the mall with intentions of getting a birthday present for my sister & getting a lego mines of moria set for myself. but there wasnt any when i arrived at the ~lego store~ which i was sure should have stocks of them because god damn it, it was a lego store, right?! 

aaaaanyway i spent almost 50 bucks on gifts and i'm left with $40 and apprently when you're at the mall, you magically lose track of what youre spending on and i dont even know where i spent on on $30. geez.

book of the mundane

this past week:

1. found a new fandom 
2. watched all of LOTR all over again
3. bought a new book to read 
4. watched the hobbit!
5. quite content that i now have another fandom i belong to
6. frequent the tampines and the lego shop far too many times in a week 
7. going again tomorrow to figure out what to give to people who are born in december & january
8. contemplating on wether i should get the mines of moria lego set
9. still wondering why they did not include frodo in the set, because he, after all, got stabbed by the troll 

book of the disappointed, raging, angry, confused fan

the last airbender movie was a horrid movie. the only thing they got right was princess yue because she looked gorgeous and perfect, but the scenes/sequence that she was involved in were incorrect, so…

i mean i get the part where they changed the storyline a little bit to make it within the time theyve set but messing around the facts was really wrong.

like how they said the fire nation started the war because they didnt want anything to do with the spirit world. like how "ong" keeps yammering about wanting to meet some 'dragon spirit' bullshit. like how "ong" said that a monks have to meditate without being distracted in order to get the tattoos.
and what the fuck was that all about, the part where firebenders werent able to draw fire out of their own hands?

URGH EVERYTHING WAS SO WRONG.

the only thing they couldve at the very least make things make sense was to make the fire nation population look chinese-asian and the water tribe look native american/indian. seriously commander zhao with that face?!! and what the fuck is ee-roh? or soe-kah? and agni ki?!?! seriously?! urgh.

- end of rant-

other than that i wish they could not have named the movie with the blue people in it 'avatar'. it confuses too much people. just when i thought someone was actually on the same page but then theyre not after listening just makes me sad.

and if you also happen to be as much of a massive nerd over avatar as much as i am, be sure to say hi okay, we should totally be friends. (x)

book of the shallow and materialistic

today i helped my sister and her friend for some write-your-wish-on-these-balls booth thing and it was pretty interesting. i had a good laugh, laughing at people and laughing with people.

and there were people who wrote wishes like 

"I WISH FOR AN EUROPEAN GIRLFRIEND"

"GOOD GRADES BE SKINNY BE PRETTY" bla bla bla very material things like that. 

and i wrote things like

i hope they wont make m. night shamalayan the director for the next avatar film (if any) or just not make avatar into a movie 

i hope they make a really good movie out of my favourite books  

ALL As FOR O LEVELS!! PASS ALL THE SUBJECTS!!

and things like that. and right now i'm going to watch the horribly done movie claimed by every viewer  and then after that i'll wish that i should have never watched it but right now i'm going to anyway knowing this is a terrible decision. 

book of the lazy

5 years old birthday, i think? on a precious ancient polaroid // the whole corkboard shabang (with pee results from WEP!!  // perks movie ticket, talk about monumental, because it was my first nc 16 movie. 

pretty much stayed at home all week because i'm too broke to go anywhere and even when i want to go out for a walk to the library or something, it's either raining heavily or scorching hot. but going to the library doesnt even help because i'm $10 in debt of the library from overdue fines. 

and the library threatening to incur $2 more if i dont pay by god knows when also didnt help.

so today was a lot more productive then the rest of the week because i finally came around to ~clean~ my room and also my ~desk~ oh my precious favourite desk/workspace

and then i took photos with my ~mad photo taking skillz~ aka horrible and yeah that was the peak of my week. dont even know why i'm telling you all this. 

book of the unaccomplished

favorite sweaters. but i have far too many for someone who lives in a humid country.

i have mixed feelings about school starting in a month. it'll be my final year and we'll be sitting at the gallery every assembly at the hall and also less than a year to o levels and once school starts we'll be getting out art question paper and everything just scares me so much right now i want it to stop.

other than that it seems like i have achieved nothing over the holidays unlike of what i've planned, like read more books and practice some splits and workout more but no. none of that is done.

i need to stop being a fat cat.