ever so young

Abercrombie & Fitch shirtless greeter? There were like tons of girls greeting them instead haha
Anyway they were all really kind and gentlemanly and skaljhsgfdksjdsa

Sigh I really wish I have a good camera. These photos were taken with the ever so pathetic phone of mine.

useless efforts

When you have your close friends openly planning out an outing in front of you and there is a very clear sign that they're not inviting you.

When you try so hard to keep them close to you.

When you try so hard to make yourself likeable for them to an extent that you go out of your way, do the things you think you should do just to make them like you.

And all in the end, they're all still the same.

I tried so hard to please people that I became a slave. I let people just step all over me. I let the others do what they want while I give 110% of my effort and in the end they all get the equal credit.

So much mixed feelings it's like a mix of

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On a much lighter note, there is also a feeling of this

And this

Because I've received a Good Progress Award from the ministry of education. 

  

we are all equal

from a personality quiz online. quite accurate.

what they're for

sigh. 

clean my spring

earlier my mother and I did the annual spring cleaning where we actually review our stuffs and consider to throw it away or not. And rearrange our furniture placement.

I asked mom why not we throw away this life size mirror on the wall that had been with us for years and it had a crack anyway, and my mom told me

"I've threw away everything and this is what I want to keep in memory of your father. I have nothing of him left anymore except for this"

It was a good 'bonding time' I had with mom while we cleaned.

To make up for the lack of posts, here's an update with some irrelevant photos

Here are just irrelevant photos to make up for the days I hadn't been updating. Well, not that I have to, but I feel bad to leave this blog and let it ironically "collect dust" and look abandoned. Anyway, my days are not really preoccupied cause it's not that I even go out to even hang out with my friends. Sigh.

Maybe a deep post will come out once in a while these days.