i have always made a good job at worrying. it either turns out way better than i had anticipated or just not as worse as i had imagined. today marks the start of the o level exam period and we start off with science practical and it was ok. i'm sure the bell curve for bio would be sort of low. hopefully.
and then after that i had an appointment which pretty much fucked up my anxiety level since they urgently shifted it 20 days forward almost immediately after i had the physical exam done. that also went okay.
i felt lifted the moment the doctor said "of course we'll use general anesthesia" because being numb while conscious at the same time while listening to doctors meddling with their apparatus scares me.
and i guess i was that nervous because i keep drifting in and out of sleep the night before and i could hear voices in my head telling me about how anxious i was. and it was clearly showing as i sat in the waiting room and my mom offered me coffee which i firmly declined and then she proceeded to pat my chest telling me to relax.
all is good.
all is well.
