i know i get nothing from holding on to the past and it's completely pointless and poisonous to hold on to grudges but i just cant seem
to let go
and everything is still completely clear to this day and they all come back and all i can feel is pain and humiliation. i dont even remember doing anything to severely aggravate him to do such a thing, or even if what i did can be punished by humiliating me like that.
or even if being punished for trying to find a confidante in the security of a harmless journal is even right, or that even taught me anything that they had aimed for.
