it's silly sometimes how much of an open book i am. it pains me to the core how I can't mask the things im going through. 

a lot going on this week. it burns me out to feel like i dont have a place anywhere. it makes me feel so done to think i have to work extra harder than anyone here to prove my place. 

i dont know, i dont need to prove my point or anything but i have this grudging feeling to look for some sort of apporval. from whom, i dont know