january. in other news i feel like ive been overwhelmed by so much anxiety lately, and i have to make choices for the life that i want. i feel like im definitely obligated to choose what would make me happy because of my interests, but another part of me tells me that i will eventually come to like what i do, because it'll get me a profession. other than that, applied for school the very last day because i had no idea that the school posting was released earlier than others, and shortly after applying i was told to report to school 3 days later. i need to stop worrying but that's all i do even though it wont do anything and everything will all work out in the end. i really need to stop worrying.
