how everything's going at the moment: bad.
i'm slipping away and i'm afraid if i might just lose it one day. i think about it and get breakdowns from it. my effort isnt showing any progress as an effect and to make things worse my form teacher (who apparently doesnt even teach me) told my mom that once i dont understand something during lessons i whip out my book to read. which is a total lie.
i'm trying. i'm trying really hard.
i'm trying to tell you the truth but there's nothing that can testify it.
i'm trying to tell you i'm working on it one by one, starting with what's going through my head.
i'm trying.
i'm trying really hard.
