maybe the whole judgemental, self-centered figure i carry is me abandoning the years of my life i have spent trying to please people.
i dont know.
for all i know i'm doing this for myself. when i put others ahead of me, everything and everyone else tells me it's bad that i put everyone else's happiness before myself. and when i'm in the state i'm in right now everyone else thinks i'm pulling it off as someone too quick to judge, and just plain selfish.
i dont understand this place. i really dont. and just do it for yourself.
